The Loop in My Head.

So often, I get stuck in my head.

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I create stories, obstacles, endless questions that

spiral me into sadness or frustration, anguish.

My mind convinces me there are things to fix,

answers to find, problems to solve-yet most of the

time, they’re not even real problems.

They’re just patterns.

 

This is part of my Human Design. I carry the Channel

of Logic (63–4), a channel of mental ease mixed with

doubt. It generates questions, it demands answers &

then gets penetrated with a hit of doubt.

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It’s a channel that was never meant for me alone, it

belongs to for the collective for refining systems,

for testing what works & what doesn’t. 

And so when I turn it inward, when I make it personal,

it becomes my downfall & I get trapped in the loop. The spiral infecting every thought, twisting my mind.

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Ra Uru Hu taught that it takes seven years for every cell in the body to renew, therefore seven years for us to decondition. I'm only two years into my experiment. Some habits fall away easily while others cling with persistence.

Human Design is not an overnight cure. It’s a lifelong practice.

 

And still—I’m committed. Because even in the shadows, gifts wait to be uncovered. Moments of clarity arrive like sparks in the dark.
Growth takes root.

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And if Human Design can give me tools to move toward those gifts, then I’m in.

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By learning the language of your design, you begin to crack open the shadow.

Light filters in.

Healing begins.

And beginning—that is enough.