I realised something yesterday—

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I can’t remember the last time I woke up with that heavy feeling in the pit of my

stomach.

 

For the longest time, I’d start the day carrying a weight I couldn’t always name.

A tightness in my chest. A quiet dread I couldn’t shake. The worry that I’d said

something wrong. Missed something. Let someone down. The guilt would arrive

before my feet even touched the floor. & if there wasn’t a clear reason for it?

My mind would quickly find one. It always did.

 

That’s the thing about living out of alignment. When you’re not living according

to your own design—when you’re bending, contorting, people-pleasing,

second-guessing—you feel it. You don’t always know what’s wrong.

But your body does. Your soul does. It whispers through unease.

Through dread. Through that ache in your belly that just won’t go away.

 

Maybe that pressure we wake with isn’t anxiety in the way we’ve been taught to

name it.

Maybe it’s our soul quietly shouting,

“Stop! This isn’t it. This isn’t you.”

 

I used to make plans out of guilt. Say yes when I wanted to say no. Commit to

things because I thought I should. I’d feel the regret before the event had even

started. The resentment came next. & then, I’d beat myself up for that too.

 

But slowly, I started making changes. I began saying no.

Not harshly. Not dramatically. Just… quietly, calmly, clearly.

& things started to shift.

 

Human Design has been one of the biggest tools that helped me understand why all of this felt so hard for so long. It teaches that if something isn’t right for you, it’s not right for the other person either. That’s not selfish—that’s alignment. That’s truth. That’s living from a place of inner authority, not outer obligation.

 

So instead of tying myself in knots and spreading myself so thin that I barely recognised myself…

Now?

Now, my days feel different.

 

They reach out ahead of me, open & unstructured.

Not because I’m lazy. Not because I have nothing to do.

But because I get to follow what feels good.

I get to honour what my energy is actually here for.

& most importantly—I’ve learned how to let the rest go.

 

I wake up now & notice what’s not there.

No dread. No guilt. No tight-chested panic.

Just calm.

Just breath.

Just peace.

 

And if you’re not there yet, that’s okay. Truly.

Start small.

 

If boundaries feel hard for you, watch someone you admire hold theirs.

Learn from them. Let them model it for you.

& then experiment. Say no to something tiny. See how it feels.

Don’t expect instant magic—Rome wasn’t built in a day & neither is self-respect.

 

But each time you choose yourself, each time you honour your design, it gets easier. Lighter.

The knots begin to loosen. The dread begins to dissolve.

 

& if anyone questions you?

Just smile and say,

“I can’t help it. It’s my design.”